What Now?

Well, having four kids, 4 years and under has really been a growing experience. However, now we are contemplating adoption for the 20 month old. Talk about being in a whirlwind. My mom pointed out to me the reason I am having such a struggle with this decision. She say's it's because I have the choice to either keep her or not. Most people already were seeking another child or have no other option. (Like they get pregnant or something) What is best for us, her, her sister and her eternity? I don't know. We will keep considering all the options, but I know I will figure it out. Whatever the outcome, I hope it will be the best for everyone.